Day 562: Change Your Mind

It’s important to change your mind.

24 hours ago, I would have been pro red-light cameras. Clamoring for them, actually. As somebody who is primarily pedestrian/cyclist, I’m sensitive to stupid drivers, and drivers are stupid.

The problem is actually less “stupid” and more “thoughtless and selfish” — what’s going on around them isn’t relevant, only getting somewhere as fast as humanly possible. Even if there’s no need to get somewhere fast.

Edging up to ranting, so let’s get this back on focus.

So I am, at default, pro anything that calms traffic and punishes bad drivers. I’ve got a broad and general feeling that we drive a lot more than we actually need to, and as a society plan our lives in a kind of dumb way because transportation is easy and cheap, giving us sprawl and ecological disaster instead of urban density and good city planning.

I’m a red light camera advocate.

Then somebody drops this on me — a summary of some metadata studies showing red light cameras increase accidents:

I haven’t gone fishing for evidence for red light cameras yet.

But, absent that, I’m changing my mind.

This is a good thing. Minds should change. I’m glad mine did.



Day 249: Oh, Sleep

Operation Don’t Get Up has proven its usefulness as a way to re-train the cat, but middle-of-the-night wakefulness is still a thing.

It was an interesting time, because it gave me a chance to try out some of my can’t-sleep strategies as discussed before:

  • Try meditation: check. Not really effective, but interesting — the problem is I’d kind of start getting into a bit of a neutral state. But then I’d get sleepy. And then my brain wouldn’t fall asleep, but relax enough to let the pressing thoughts back in. But it was interesting.
  • Organize myself. Actually pretty useful. I woke up this morning with a fairly clear morning laid out in my mind. I’ve got a systemic set of goals when I get to work. And while it didn’t shut down my busy brain, at least I feel like I got value out of it.
  • Stop relitigating fights with jerks on the Internet. This is a hard one, because it’s the intersection between my sense of justice, intellectual pride, and an emotional core. It’s weird — I really, really hang onto Internet fights, which should be the most trivial part of my day. There’s a whole thing about how I was pursuing a “don’t argue with people on the Internet” approach. But given what’s going on the the world today, I think passively accepting and thereby normalizing crappy behaviour is part of the problem. So I’m trying to be more vocal and to generally show that no, racism/misogyny/idiocy is not now okay. But I’m not super emotionally equipped to do that.

On the bright side, I’m getting to experiment with can’t-sleep strategies, instead of just not sleeping. And I didn’t get up for more than a few minutes, and that mostly to go to the bathroom.

Well, and check my email. But that’s kinda legit because work is pretty off the chain right now, and having a sitrep before lying back down was more helpful than harmful. I think.