Day 570: Sympathy for the Wife

My wife’s been working 12-hour shifts to midnight, which has been playing slight havoc with my sleep schedule; today, I caved and slept in with her, because frankly I needed the sleep.

So no exercise today, which I don’t feel GREAT about but also feel kind of okay with.

Still feeling sleepy! Time to rally and face the day.


Day 363: Relaxing is hard!

As mentioned yesterday, I’m trying to lean into relaxing a bit. What’s interesting is how much all of this seems to be a package deal. It’s hard to figure out how to exercise while doing nothing the rest of the day. Or eat well without exercising. Or etcetera.

The thing is, I’m actually feeling a bit gross. I’m enjoying laziness in the moment, but at the end of the day I feel kind of bloated and off. But I also don’t feel like exercising. I’m kind of in a lazy rut, and it feels like it’s a kind of a full set of diet + exercise or complete slob.

I’m thinking a little light exercise this morning, just a few k on the rower, just to feel myself do something. I can be lazy the rest of the day. But when I start feeling off, it’s not relaxing, it’s just dumb.


Day 362: Sleep!

With the whole reboot coming on January 1, I’ve been really enjoying… sleep. It’s kind of a question of “am I building bad habits or storing up sleep energy”? I choose to believe “storing up sleep energy.”

Truth be told, I’m kind of enjoying the down time between Christmas and New Year’s now that I’m committed to just being lazy for a bit. I’m rarely lazy. Then the obvious mental rejoinder is … or are you always kinda lazy?

No matter how hard I work, I’ll never quite feel like I’m working hard enough. And when I relax, I fret about whether I’m relaxing “right”. This is why I’m starting to see the value of those kinds of vacations I used to think were dumb. Cruises. Beach vacations. Things where you’re literally forced to do nothing. Doing nothing because you don’t have a choice might be a winning solution for me. It gives you permission to do nothing!

A couple more days of leaning into laziness. I’ve done well with a year of sobriety, and this is the reward: a few days of nothin’. The work starts again on January 1, yeah?