Day 247: Short Run / Fast Fail

Arrgh. Another failed fasting day yesterday. I caved with excess snacking, and my wife was not in a position to help me with keeping on top of it. So I’m feeling kind of low this morning. Still managed most of the day, though.

The question is whether I’mĀ capableĀ of fasting for a full day. Are these kinds of freak-outs a weak will or my body telling me something pretty important?

So Thursday will be another kick at the can; maybe it’s time for me to re-evaluate whether or not this even works for me, conceptually. If I can’t manage it repeatedly, it may just not be the right fit, and being agonized/miserable isn’t a compensation for whatever the gains might be.

I can’t remember if I’ve brought this up before, but I heard a phrase I liked a lot recently. “Failure is feedback.” That’s a nice thing to hear. And to think about. So I know I’m failing, but what’s the feedback? Again, it’s either “I can’t do this full stop” or “I need to change something about how I’m doing this.”

Still not being great about daily weight and food logging, in part because of the fasting, too. I figure “no need” to log food on fasting days, and then I get off track and stop bothering, and/or get super busy in the mornings and don’t get on top of it. And if I don’t get it done in the morning, it doesn’t get done.

Good things happening in my personal/volunteer life; some rewarding volunteer work being done. Time-consuming, but it feels nice to be doing something that has direct positive impact.