It’s been a rocky month on a lot of fronts, with mood and diet all over the place. Looking back to the origins of this blog and podcast, though — I’m not drinking! So as a point of origin, I’m still going strong on the one essential front.
So that’s something.
As stated, it’s been a bit of a rough month. The funny thing is, it’s hard to put a finger on why other than “…because?”. I’m chalking it up to going hard in February/March, the cyclical nature of Me, and a truly rotten spate of late winter weather.
But I’m sober.
That’s something. And not something small. It’s been hella hard sometimes — it seems to be getting easier now, but don’t get overconfident — and that has gone from “a thing I am trying” to a pretty core component of my self-identity.
I’d flatter myself to think that it’s also made me (or doing this has made me) more self-aware and self-reflective. I’d love to say “calmer,” but I think I’m just as irritable as I’ve ever been, only differently irritable sometimes.
So yeah. Rough month. I feel good about May. And I’m sober! That’s worth celebrating… with a sandwich or something.