Ugh, make that FOUR months. I think I’ve been semi-off-my-game since JULY. Not a horrorshow, but if I had to track back to a general sense of creeping malaise, it would be around the Canada Day weekend when I felt like I was out of steam in a very broad and abiding sense.
It’s this weird liminal space where I’m still productive and forward thinking and motivated to do things, sometimes, but there’s more of a bedrock of meh that I get down to quickly.
I’ve done therapy before, and it might be time to go back to that well — there’s nothing super concerning here. But that’s part of the problem. I’m not super concerned about my wellbeing, but I’m also not jazzed about anything, and haven’t been for a few months now.
With a week of vacation/remove, it’s easy to see that it’s that there’s too much on my plate; I need to cut back on stuff and actually spend more time decompressing. Managing the guilt of not doing stuff then becomes its own challenge… hence the therapy!
There are times in life when it’s good to go to somebody whose job is to help you figure out life stuff in exchange for money. I think it’s time to roll back into the therapy thing again!