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Okay, you know how I had this whole weighing myself strategy? The daily “just a number” thing that I’m supposed to put out of my mind and not worry about?
Yeah. That’s harder than I thought.
I’ve been doing the weighing, which is stellar, and pats on the back for me. But the “fuggedaboutit” part of that weighing is not going as it should.
Folks, I am obsessing a bit. Just a bit.
Obsessing is kind of a default state.
Stuff gets in my head. I’ve lost sleep over irate Facebook comments. Imagined arguments that I haven’t had yet and probably never will, prey on me. I get head-loops of stuff all the time that are hard to shake.
So I should have known that this weight thing would not be as “fire and forget” as I set it up to be.
I’m going to persist; I don’t have any other ideas or better plans.
But I’m checking in to let you know that it’s not as easy to do the “just a number, forget it” thing as I thought it might be. I thought with that setup, I’d be poised to just log and disregard. I underestimated my brain’s ability to latch on.
While we’re on the subject of things that aren’t going perfectly, I’ve been slipping on the check-outs, too. They’ve become perfunctory rather than moments of focus.
So: some things to work on. It’s like the old “don’t think of an elephant” thing — focusing on putting something out of my head feels counterproductive. But I need to work on it. So I guess I’ll… un-work on it? Huh?